This is my first blog on Trichotillomania, if you don't know what Trich is; for me it is caused by anxiety and stress from trauma throughout my life,and not finding a healthy way to cope with all of the issues. I've had loss and loneliness along with health issues and autism with my sons. I'm a Army wife that went through 8 different deployments from a few months long, to 15 months. I've hidden from the news reports while my husband has been deployed, I've hidden from public, I've tried staying to myself. It never worked!. I needed to find a way to cope with the hairy monster that seemed to control every area of my life.
I began pulling so much I had baled spots and I looked like a old man with no hair. I covered up with bandannas, hats and wigs; but none of it truly helped with the situation at hand, my hair pulling.
My kids see it as normal, but what is normal now? there is no set normal within the American culture. My biggest memory was when I lost my wig, I couldn't find it so I ran around my house screaming I've been scalped and I can't find my hair. Or when I would get out of the shower or just in the car driving with the kids start singing " No Hair for my hairbrush" from veggie tales. I found ways to help my kids cope, but was I really coping? I would leave the house, put my hat or wig on and paint a smile on my face. I was actually crying inside because I wanted hair like the beautiful lady next to me at the store, or walking by the beauty shop and dream of going in to get my hair styled and cut like a normal lady. I was playing the all's fine part really well, but inside I was screaming help me.
Ten years ago I started on Zoloft in hopes that it would help with the hair pulling, it helped with the anxiety but the hair pulling continued. Board om equaled hair-pulling, watching T.V. equaled hair-pulling, driving a car equaled hair pulling and even my Alabama or Denver Football meant hair-pulling. I sat in a pile of hair frustrated, sad and alone.
About two years ago I started a product my husband was trying and figured what could it hurt, I mean I have no hair left. So at first I didn't see a change, but the more I took it the bigger the change. Two weeks after I started there was a big difference in the hair pulling, it didn't completely stop but I was more aware and more in control. My hair is still growing back from the years of pulling, and some days I have to really stop myself before pulling. I still shave my head so that my hair can have a chance to grow in without being messed with, but it's growing in thicker and there is some light at the end of this hairless tunnel.
I started this blog to bring others along in my journey as I walk through the pull free journey. I truly believe in this supplement I take with the Zoloft because I've seen the difference and I don't want to keep it to myself.
If you would like more Information on the supplement send me a message and I will begin showing you what I've done that helps me. With Trich we can't do this alone, we must be there for each other through internet or physical, either way we must hold each other accountable for the good days and the bad hairy days. Just remember you are not alone!
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